im drinking the cough med my mom made made for me now..surprisingly it tastes quite nice..maybe she added honey or sth..my throat is really killing me..hope i'll be able to recover by tomoro considering i still have to go shopping with mom for my new yr clothes..yeah! and also go for the bandage concert..hope it's nice..=)..
this wk's really very very busy for me..the earliest day i reached home is today..which is like six thirty...think the rest of my yr will prob be this way too..i really hope i can tahan..but considering im feeling sick and super tired now..i do have doubts abt it...must keep telling myself..just a few more mth to As and everything will be much better aft tt..this is gonna be one of the toughest time in my whole life..and im sure i'll pull thru..=)..considering my friends will be there for me..and he will be going thru the same thing as me..and being by my side..=)..yupz..must have a positive attitude..tt's what i always tell myself and other ppl..=)..shall relax and have an early nite tonite...tomoro then do my work..if not i think my body will really start going on a strike..
today was super paiseh during chem..got teased by my chem tutor abt us..i think tt was the first time my classmates actually saw me blushing..haha..i dont really blush tt easily..but then i still must say it was quite sweet la..although quite paiseh..=)...i like miss wong..she's lame and very friendly..and she's a very good tchr too..but then again..i kind of feel abit stressed during chem tests and stuff cos it's like she seemed to have quite high expectation of me..and i really dont wish to let her down...or disappoint her..but i wont give myself too much pressure too..just do my best ba..im sure she will understand de..=)
spapers are really demanding esp chem when i had to copy non-stop..and it's one thurs my super long day..with pe somemore..but i wont regret taking it..for sure..cos when i think abt getting nearer and nearer to my goal, it really makes me feel happy and a sense of accomplishment..yupz..shall go read or watch tv now..tata..=)
12:36 PM
~innocent always
15.1.05
haven been updating my blog..as usual..=)..cos nth much happened also..school's getting busier..guess nxt week will be my last slack week b4 spapers start..i'll have no early day during the week..shant think abt tt yet..enjoying my weekend now..not much hwk..just stayed at hm..do the things i want..study a bit of sats..and did a puzzle for my mom today..altho it's only 108 pieces..but tt's a good start..cos i dont really remember finishing a complete piece of jigsaw in my whole life..hehe..feels a sense of achievement..just hope she will like it la..just started reading tusday with morrie..so far quite interestin..makes me stop and think abt life..my relationship with mom hasnt been tt good recently..i just feel tt she doesnt have enuff trust in me..she doesnt know tt i know how to think for myself now..how to plan my own schedules..maybe she does..but she just doesnt want to accept it..but im eighteen and im sensible enuff to know wat's impt and wat's not..just hope she will understand one day..cos it really doesnt feel good to see her angry or sad..yupz..nth much to say le..shall go and read my book..tata
2:03 PM
~innocent always
10.1.05
i have nth to do now..really!!..it seems like this yr has been really really free so far..well yest juz discovered sth which makes me totally shocked...one of my best fren is officially with my classmate..i've been kept in the dark for like two mth..i think im getting really blur...maybe in my own world nt knowing tt so much has happened ard me..i just hope tt he will treat her well la..he better does..if not im not going to let him off..i think love is really a very strange thing..one moment u can be saying the negative stuff abt tt person..and e other moment..u may just fall in love with him..it's wierd..really wierd..maybe tt's y love is blind..and those "observers" from outside will nv get to understand their feelings..but i'll still wish them all the best!..=)
today wasnt really a happy day for me..feels a bit bored and stuff with school..and gp lesson was kinda stressing when u realise tt u dont know most of the vocab tt's flashed onto the screen..maybe tt serves as a warning to start mugging for my sats..i really hate memorising vocabs..but it seems like tt's the fastest way to make progress...i think im getting lazy..yes i am..should start planning and following the plan..eh..maybe starting fr tomoro..hehe..
it really feels awful when u r sitting in front of ur loved ones and u have no idea wat to say...tt's the feeling i get sometimes..i know we cant be talking all the while..but im sb who will feel really really wierd in moments of silence when im with someone..i'll get used to it..and wont let it bother me too much..cant really make any sense in what im talking abt right?..haha..nvm..it's ok..oh ya must wish my friends happy birthday!!...their bdays are in 3 consecutive days..Happy Birthday!!! Shim, Ziye and Chong!!...=)must stay happy and pretty always!!..smile=)..i'll go read my book now..tata
9:17 AM
~innocent always
5.1.05
when we were still young..=)
9:49 AM
~innocent always
School has started!!oh well..nothing much happened..been busy preparing for tests in the last two days..math..then bio..well today finally have the time to update my blog..saw my junior class today..they look super guai!!..were we like tt last time..hehe..think so ba...i still remember the time when we met our seniors for the first time..we were sharing senior class with 72..can say tt we are adopted la..so not really close to them..i remembered the first impression i had was they were so wild..they gave us champagn to drink..hehe..time really flies..and now we are the seniors..hope we can have jts or sjt soon..i predict tt we will be so so so busy in the following mths...really hope tt we can survive..we are already beginning to feel the pressure aft the lecturers started their lecture by showing us our syllabus and plan for the yr..it's gonna be really packed..actually i kinda expected it tt way..but juz isnt tt prepared for the harsh reality..reality..reality..o-lvls just seemed like yest!!..and now the big As...saw alot of the seniors today too..they seemed so relaxed and carefree now..so im going to look on the bright side of life..juz one more year it will be us..im sure all my friends will be there with me thru this yr..=)
tomoro i'll be down for telematch cos of fac com..or cluster com for now..think it shld be a good chance to get to know more abt the juniors..and fri we gonna have war games and camp fire..juz like last yr..think it will be a good way to end the wk..oh yeah sat gonna cele shim's bday at lin's hse...haha...must really enjoy e first few days before reality sinks in..i guess when it's time to study..i'll study really really hard..when it's time to play and spend time with my friends..i'll really enjoy myself too...study hard and play hard..=)..isnt tt wat they teach us too..gonna find food to eat liaoz..hungry..hehe..tataz
