shall use blue today..since im really feeling quite blue..hai..block test is really depressing...really really...it seems like everything is so hard..and although i ve studied quite hard for it..everything still isnt going well..sob sob...i really dont understand...is the paper too hard?..that's the reason we always find to console ourselves...maybe it is ba..hehe..since i still need some motivation...still got two more paper left...bio and phy spa...so the next three days..will be bio bio and all bio...guess most people wld have finished their tests by today...anyway..tt's s7 for us..we are supposed to be more hardworking...=)...really dont feel like studying today..really feel quite drained aft one whole week of tests..study..tests the next morning again...well shall look on the bright side then...it's going to be over on mon..and aft bio..i'll really be super super happy...tt's until i get back my results..think these one yr plus in hwachong has really thot me how to face up to failures..and disappointments..really throughout my life..ive nv had so much difficulties coping with my studies..now im starting to feel a bit pressurized..and all the what ifs just keep appearing in my mind..what if i dont get to keep my s papers..what if i dont do well in a levels..what ifs what ifs..but luckily im not a pessimistic person..usu i'll think of tt for only a while..and after tt i'll forget abt it...i think we really must learn how to get up when we fall as we grow up...and suddenly i feel very very old..imagine in just two years..we'll all be in our twenties...tt's really quite scary..looking back..what have i achieved..i have done how many things knowing the reason behind..i have studied how many things..knowing and truly understood what i have studied..maybe life is really about discovery..discovering the purpose in life...discovering what's ur true self like...it will be really great if we can start to think of the meaning why we are doing certain things..why are we in a situation we are in now....
well..guess..i'll give myself a good break today..then jiayo for the next three days...good luck to everybody..=)..dont worry..i'll be smiling again soon..=)...
