My fantasy world...

25.9.06

today is my last day in singapore. Will be leaving tonight for London in less than 10 hrs...i'm having mixed feelings now..excited about living and studying in a new country..sad about having to leave my dearest and my close friends..and although my parents are going with me..i will be leaving them too in a short time..scared about being in a new environment, having to be the minority in the country and stepping out of the safe and and comfortable singapore..perhaps it is really the time for me to grow up, to be more independent and to see the world on my own. I am really fortunate i must say..how many people actually have such chances to pursue their dreams..and i have felt really loved during the past few weeks...hanging out with my closest friends..catching up and reminising the past..going out with my dearest who has left me with so many memories and showered me with so much love..and of cos spending time with my parents and they just left a very meaningful note in my notebook which i'm going to carry with wherever i go (of cos there are also all the neoprints of my dearest friends!) I can tell that my parents really cant bear to leave me but they have to let go now that their one and only daughter has grown up..i'm sure this will be a very difficult time for them too..To lessen their worries, i must really take good care of myself and work hard:) the parting will be painful but it is sweet too because i am on my way to pursue my dreams with the love and support of so many people. To my all the important people in my life: Don't feel too upset, instead feel happy for me for I am now living my dreams :D I will treasure you guys and look forward to my return wor..hugs:)

Bye! Keep in contact and remember my smile:)

7:20 AM

~innocent always

22.9.06

happy birthday my dear..thank you for such a memorable day:)

5:33 PM

~innocent always

21.9.06

spent a day with my oldest friend waiyin:) it was really fun!..shopping..chatting..gossiping..laughing..taking neoprints and photos..visited her dorm too..haha it was messy but quite cosy..hehe..and helped her to stick her photos on her wall..next time must stick mine in the middle of the heart k girl:)..im really happy that we are still so close after so many years...yay no one will ever replace u in my heart girl..u have been there throughout and we've grown up together and seen all the different faces of each other..our most embarrasing moments..our first crush..first love..blind worshipping of idols..making prank calls to u-know-who..haha...i still remember..helping out at BSC..taking lots and lots of neoprints together..thank you girl for being there at all these memorable moments..love ya!

4:06 PM

~innocent always

20.9.06

was packing my room today..put away all my A-levels tys into boxes and sealed it with masking tape..perhaps that signifies a new beginning for me..perhaps it's time to move on and stops clinging on too much to the past (besides my dearest friends) hee..yup so what if i have performed well in the past..it's all in the past..i have to look ahead and start to prepare myself mentally to work hard..it's not going to be easy esp since now im diving into something which i have nv done before..it's not going to be easy having to fulfil the requirements of my scholarship provider..it's not going to be easy when i have to cope with all these all on my own..it's not going to be easy..i have to be mentally prepared for all these..as the parting become nearer..it suddenly dawn on me that i'm going to leave everything and everyone i have been so familiar with..i haven't really felt sad since i knew that im going away..until today this morning..i started to feel melancholic..i started to worry..but well being the optimistic girl i have always been, i'm not any near the verge of breaking down..i'm still happy and excited at the same time..like what my mom was telling me yest..i am really fortunate..i should be really thankful for everything i've been blessed and i am..really i am..i am blessed with such wonderful parents who are willing to give everything to me..i am blessed with such great friends who are always there for me..i am blessed with such caring teachers who have been so encouraging and willing to help me..i am blessed with the opportunities of having been in such good schools which have moulded me into who i am today..i am blessed with that special someone who has been supporting me always..i am really a blessed girl..i am really thankful for everything..i have made my choice and i have already walked my first steps...now it's time to take even bigger steps...start running and even flying...i will put in my best..for myself and for all which i've been blessed:) thank you all and thank you god:p

5:20 PM

~innocent always

19.9.06

was reading qi's blog just now,im really touched by the things she said:...( really miss all the times we've had together in jc..alto it was only two years, i'm so glad that i managed to find such a great friend who is always there for me encouraging me along..helping me to tide over the most difficult times and sharing all my joy and sorrow with me..i really miss all the bus journeys back home..all the loitering around west mall before our community services..all the studying and food hunts before Math S papers..all the exam preparations..the shopping sessions..the nail painting and makeover before prom..all the phone calls..msges..and alotalot more..all the times we've spent together...i'm really thankful for all these...and u and angeline will definitely be one of my best friends always:) I believe we'll always think of one another wherever we might be:)

To all my dearest friends, each one of you have been an important part of my life, i really cannot imagine life without anyone of you, hope the flame of friendship will continue burning..always and friends forever!

11:11 AM

~innocent always

went shopping with mommy just now and bot my fav mooncake from raffles the plaza:) yummy champagne, crunchy chocolate, bailey's cream and rum & raisin chocolate:) tried every single flavour and they are all superb compared to the all the rest i tried at taka..yumyum can't wait to eat..and i love taka during the mid autumn season cos we got to try all the mooncakes from different hotels. After the mooncake sampling, mom and I were quite full, but we still got egg tarts from crystal jade and the hokkien mee & beef noodles from food republic..yummy yum..im really becoming quite a glutton...:x

11:02 AM

~innocent always

17.9.06

went to swenson's with my parents for dinner:) I really love the ice-cream at swensons..think it's even nicer than haagen daz and of cos much cheaper..the flavours i love are cookies and cream..mocha almond fudge..malted chocolate..lime sherbet..yum yum..hehe..im really turning into a greedy pig..then went to watch the banquet after that, it was quite good i think..alto the emperor really and seriously looks comical..my dad kept laughing everytime he appeared..if u have watched before the shows the actor has acted in, it's completely different from this..he's such a great comedian but definitely not a great emperor to be..zhang ziyi or should i call her ziyi zhang is as cool and professional as before, somehow she's really able to portray each character well and her martial art and dance skills really can wow the crowd..wu yan zu is very handsome and i'm really amazed at the improvement of his chinese..he couldnt speak well last time but now he pronounces every single word accurately..zhou xun is quite pretty and she's able to act very well too..her character is a girl devoted to the prince (wu yan zu)..i like her voice although my mom doesnt..it's low and husky..:)..really had a great evening with my parents..i will definitely treasure the time i have with them..really gonna miss them a lot a lot alot...:)..hugs

5:00 PM

~innocent always

16.9.06

had a really great party last night at east coast:) it's really very touching to see all my friends whom i've invited coming down all the way from the nus/ntu/toa payoh/driving centre/fort canning despite the long journey and the inconvenient location:) Thank you ALL everyone of you. Hope you have enjoyed yourselves yesterday and really hope we can keep in contact when im in london and i will definitely come and bug you all when i come back to singapore! really gonna miss you all a lot a lot a lot, hug hug. i've uploaded the photos to flickr, do take a look at them:)

11:35 AM

~innocent always

14.9.06

Serene is again in a happy mood today:) Jamming session was fun!!! It was really great to get to know so many talented seniors who are so passionate about music. And they are really helpful to me, the youngest member of the crowd, helping me with the scores and melody, hope I didnt give them too much trouble:p. I really enjoyed myself today and we did recordings too. Now I really look forward to forming the whole orchestra in London and having more jamming sessions. Here's the link to Faith the musical's website:) Feel free to take a look: http://faiththemusical.blogspot.com/

I'm looking forward to the party tomoro:) shall rest earlier..night night

4:04 PM

~innocent always

13.9.06

im having a huge appetite these days, seriously huge! ate nearly a whole packet of M&Ms for breakfast, 3 slices of pizza for lunch, 6 midjoints for dinner after which finishing up my M&Ms, a whole big peach and bah kua! oh my, what's happening to me? I can just eat and eat non-stop without feeling a tinch of fullness, though my face seems to get rounder:(

well wanted to do something constructive today, like reading a book and playing my violin, in the end, i spent the whole afternoon receiving songs from lin, browsing thru the london tourism websites and printing photos of my dearest friends, mommy daddy and relatives. I will bring all these photos with me to london, it's just like carrying their love for me everywhere i go:p yeah..hehe..and after which i helped my mom to teach her student and watched tv till 10pm haha..well, how many more days of such life will i have? not much, hee so gonna enjoy them:)

the next few days will be fun:) will be having jamming session for Faith the Musical (it's a production by Singaporean students from University of London to raise fund for the Singapore Children Cancer Foundation which will be staged in London in next February) tomorrow, my first jamming session with the music group, couldnt make it last week because i was sick, well hope tomorrow will be fine, although i haven't touched my violin for long and i guess i really have a lot to learn from the seniors. Well, I'll go in with a positive mind set and like what my senior it's faith that bring us together and pushes us to move on:) I'm quite excited about it as this will be the first time I'll be involved in a musical and I have a chance to perform in London! and Moreover, last time my combined strings concert with RJ was also to raise fund for the same group of children. I will put in my best and hope I will be able to put in my part:)

On Friday, I'm going to have my farewell party at East Coast Resort. I have invited my closest friends and really hope that it will be fun and we can all catch up with one another before I leave.Life is beautiful:)

3:42 PM

~innocent always

11.9.06

just finished editing the template of my blog:) just felt like playing with the html and adding stuff..and i'm really proud of my new layout..think it's 100 times nicer than the old one..went out with qi for dinner at west mall..really din see her for very long time le...we did a lot of catching up and i really enjoyed the time spent together..it brings back fond memories when we used to linger around at west mall before community services..love you girl:)
yeah tomoro will be going ice-skating and watching little man..better go rest earlier so that i'll look pretty and fresh tomoro..hehe..tata..good nite my darling blog:)

6:48 PM

~innocent always

8.9.06

have been sick the past three days..so have been staying at home...watching full house..sleeping and eating..wanted to cele bday with peilin today de....feel so guilty not being able to go..it's like we've planned for such a long time and kept delaying it also..then now when the day comes for me to appear..i'm bitten by the stupid flu virus..wanted to do a lot things like spending time with my best friends..and eating all the nice food that i wanted...today serene is really touched..thank you yin!..you are definitely my oldest closest and best friend..although we may not go out or talk to each other very often, but i believe that deep in our hearts..we care alot about each other and we are all irreplaceable in each other's hearts:) and we'll always be there for each other.. love you girl and will miss you lots de..hugs my dearest friend:)

since i cant do anything..shall continue to watch my show le...Full house is very nice..tata

8:00 AM

~innocent always

2.9.06

Serene is a happy girl these 2 days, she was showered with gifts from her dearest:p thank you mom, thank you dear for such a sweet and wonderful day:) the hotair balloon was memorable and all the food we ate!!! yum yum..though we have a long time deciding which bierks to get, i love my blue small flowery print..yeah..although you liked another one...oh and mom just got me a super cute rice cooker..haha..looks like all the moms are getting that for their daughters who are going away..i love you mom:)

The stuff i got:)

and i had a super huge appetite today and i was thinking about how little chances i'll have to enjoy the food in spore before 25 sep and how i may have to live on disgusting western and self-cooked food when i get to london..wantan mee actually costs 5 pounds!!..

here is my favourite (at this moment) mango ice from ice monster

3:14 PM

~innocent always